An Open Letter To My Ultimate Crush

I just need you to know how I feel.

This open letter idea just popped up into my mind.

Personally, I'm going through a tough time right now trying to figure out what everything means. We all know what it's like to have a crush. To add on to that, sometimes we like people that affect our lives in either a positive or negative way. I like to think that we have all had at least one great experience when it comes to a crush. On the other hand, we've also had a few instances where it just didn't work out. Sometimes, us women have a lot of trouble with this. We overthink things, we stress ourselves out, and even lead ourselves on with guys. Because I am struggling with these issues, here's what I have to say to the guy I have a crush on:   

Hey you!! This one is for you. And the funny thing is, you will probably not even know that I wrote this for and about you. 

Most of the time, I'm a super chill girl that says it how it is. I'm straight up and honest with people when it comes to how I feel. I don't know what happened, but ever since you walked into my life, you completely changed the game for me. Obviously, by now, I have had many different experiences when it comes to having feelings for someone, but this is so different. At this point in your lives, in relationships, we either break up or we get married. How crazy is that?

From the moment I have met you I felt something I don’t understand. You are special, so special and I do not even think you realize how special you are. When I saw you I felt this instant attraction and for me this was weird because you are not my standard ‘type’. We share the same passion. We actually met in a competition. You are younger than me but you think more matured than me (how ironic is that?).

At this point, I don't know how I feel. Do you want something more than friends or are you just trying to pass the time?

I will not chase you. I've spent too much time in my past chasing people that did not even deserve my time. If you can't invest your time in me, how can I invest my time in you? By constantly being the one to text first and pursue the relationship, I feel like I'm just setting myself up for failure. I will not do that anymore. I want you to talk to me, and not just when you're bored. I need to know that you value me instead of making me your back up plan.

Sometimes, I act like an annoying girl that leads herself on more than you do. I plan things out in my head and prepare for the future together. I get so excited for you to meet my family, spend holidays together, and experience so many things together. I don't know why I do, I just can't help it. I enjoy being around you and I see myself being with you for more than you have even thought about. Sometimes I just have too many feelings that I want to share, but you'll just have to go with it. You're going to have to accept me as I am, even when I cry about small things or want to spend as much time as possible with you.

You may not like yourself, but I do. You talk down on yourself, but you don't even understand how much I value you in my life. We may have only known each other for a few months out of our lives, but I wish you would see how important you are to me. I believe that you have so much going for you and that you're going to go so far in your life. I just hope that maybe, just maybe, I could be there to witness that.

So, overall, I want you to text me. I want you to be honest with me. Even if it's to tell me that you don't reciprocate those feelings, I want to know how you feel about me. I just need something that proves to me that you're worth my time and effort.

If you think that this might have could be written for you, I challenge you to ask me if I wrote this for you..